Haha Im so happy that I sold 2 no-longer-wanted dresses away online today. Thanxs to MT. Well, the feeling is kind of unexplainable. To keep it simple, Im happy =)

Recently I also received quite a few positive comments about me. I was told I was difference, in a good way. Im glad about the comment of course, just hope to keep it that way.

And finally, I got 2 days off from work this week. Im going to rest and going to town with mum to get christmas presents. This month gonna be a poor chap. Ha I already have 4 christmas party/dinner set.

Busy Busy Busy. Is that an excuse? Maybe it involves laziness as well. When I am really busy, I always wanted to create some new looks for this site. However, when I am not that busy, I simply want to lay on my bed, or do some brainless thing. I am completely drained every single day after work. Without noticing, starring at the ceiling has become one of my favourite hobbies.

My shoulders are aching and my head hurts no matter how much I massaged. All thanks to my lousy nights. I can't seem to sleep well. Either I wake up damn early, or I can't find a good position to rest my shoulder correctly. Argh~ I feel like a 100 years old grandma!

But but but, I give myself a 2 days break off my work next week. Hopefully, I can hand over my project smoothly, and clear those that are pending. Or else, my 2 days leave will be thrown into the drain.

Yawn~ Time to bed. Tomorrow I still have 2 meeting to attend to. Best~

Yesterday really not my day. But it started out the day before when I can't find company to go with, to my friend birthday chalet. It's okie, then I continue to plan for my Saturday. The intial plan was to meet a friend in town, walk alittle, look for present, then go for my appointment, if time allows, maybe chat awhile before heading to east coast.

The plan goes well until, I received a sms from my colleague, informing me that there is some problems I need to attend to right away. I have no information I need on hand, no internet and no nothing. So I left with no choice, to go back to office. Made number of calls, received tons of calls, trying all means to resolve the problem here and there. Fine, is done, left the office around 5pm....rushed back for my appointment.

When I was done with my appointment, it rained heavily, and I'm simply trapped. The only place I can buy the present from was only far east since Im trapped over there. I tried my very best to grab an appropriate present, searching high and low for appropriate gift bag etc. By the time Im done, it around 7pm. Yet the rained still not yet stopped. And town was super crowded! Even I had an umbrella, Im still wet...while trying to protect the present.

Finally hopped on to the bus 16. Knowing that, walking distance is going to be super long, and lonely, I decided, to alight one stop before the usual stop, and flag for a cab. To my dismay, there's no cab!!! For you information, is still drizzling! I tried to shift myself to a place where I can flag a cab much easier. However, it was a mistake actually. I walked one big round back to where I originally was. The feeling really sux when you are wet and feeling super cold, right at a unfamiliar location alone. Is almost the same feeling as helpless.

I took almost an hour to reach my destination. What a day right.....just wasnt my day.

Life are full of temptations and doubts.

The new designer has arrived for almost 2 weeks. As promised, my job scope has been re-adjusted. Less design work, more account management role. I see myself doing partial account servicing, partial designing and partial account managing. At times, I am expected to know alittle more on the technical aspects as well. It is fun! I have opportunity to meet people (though it can be a challenge), went through thinking process to resolve certain issue, etc.

However, it can be quite confusing since Im holding multiple roles. And Im still quite new in the area of account management. People I don't used to work with, now I have to work closely with each and everyone. One more challenge is that, I have to really control my emotion. Well, you know, normal chit chatting is fine, but when it comes to asking a request to work on certain things, many things can happen.

Though it sounds kind of complicated, but I believe I can get something out of this, this time. At least, the kind of stress I'm having is not because I run of our creative juice, but more of something that I knew I can handle it and end it with a smile. I guess that's called job satisfaction. Not easy, but with a good guidance, I have good feeling about all these changes.

I will be who I am, with the confident that I've long lost it. Ha! I will!

I know there are huge pumpkin around on earth, but to touch and see it with my own hands and eyes, I am still quite amazed. My next question is, is the pumpkin real? Ha

My colleagues decided to go into a much more healthy lifestyle, therefore our pantry foods are full of oats & wheat stuff. And we have make Wednesday and Friday to be our fruit day. This Wednesday, we had watermelon; picked by yuling and me! Since none of them has an ideas how to pick a good watermelon, and both of us at least have some ideas how to, we knocked, listened and finally picked our first watermelon in life! Not bad, we picked a big, sweet and juicy watermelon!

Thanxs to our dear Richard, who cut the watermelon, caused us a mess in eating it. Why? Because he cut it in a super huge piece!

My head would sink into the curve of the watermelon

Everyone is thinking of a way to eat our huge watermelon. This is what yuling did.

Jas ignored the whole mess, break them into smaller pieces.

In the end, I gave up, to avoid causing more mess to my table, I shifted myself to basin, to complete my impossible task.

Our meinu meiting seriously cant stand it, she saved our mess by cutting the rest of the watermelon to much smaller pieces. Whew~ haha

Well, having mood swing again. Hated this feeling. It makes me moody and temperamental. Small little thingy will cause me sadness. Argh~

Words are getting lesser every year. Seem like those important people around me are not in a good state. Sometimes I feel lost, I knew yet I cant do much help. Those who are in great conditions, yet I'm not there to share their joy either. What's going wrong? Maybe....Im not satisfied with I have right now. Sounded alittle greedy, but I have not even reached the average level yet. I want to be normal, but Im not normal. Nothing much I can do, I could only continue what I am doing, and wait.

I don't know what god want me to learn which I haven't learnt so far, I just do hope, and wish for the best outcome to arrive soon.

All of our life, we are always learning something new. Don't mistaken, Im not refering to academic aspect, rather real life lesson. For instance, how to be a better person, how to handle downturn in life etc. Somebody started their life lesson later than others, some started much earlier than they could handle. Some even refused to attend these lesson (more like they cant escape, they just refused to admit they had attended before). Some are lucky enough, they have pre-lesson advices. Some are not, they went through whole lots of stuff without any advices.

Every song has it's story to go along with. These 2 two days, I had hugged my ipod to sleep. Playing all my 'favour' songs and put me onto a journey, where past memory flashes back on its own. Each songs are telling their own stories, makes me feel exactly how I did back in the past when I heard the song. I like to feel, i attached al kind of feeling to things I see, I hear, I smell and I touch (not much of taste though).

I miss 95FM. Ever since the internet streaming is being taken off, I hardly have chance to listen especially at night. And since, im sharing room, it gets even harder to listen to my favours on a speaker at night. hmmm....I should go and get a mini hi-fi set soon. Else my cds, my songs gona get rusty.